bcIn Dec. 1998, I began to feel a pain in my left breast. I had had pain in my right breast a few years earlier and a needle biopsy had shown it was fibrous tissue. This, however felt different. When I lay down, I could feel a lump on the side of my left breast. It was similar to what I had felt years before and so I did not pay much attention at first. I was 41. I had a mammogram the year before and one the year before that. Both had been negative. The last one had been in 1997.

After a few months of not paying attention, a little voice in my head, conscience or God, I don’t know, but it whispered in my ear at least once or twice a day. It simply said breast cancer. I didn’t want to believe it. I had a five year old child. My husband, who was younger than me was only 29. I went to the doctor, who ordered an ultrasound. Of course the ultrasound tech could not tell me anything, she just said Good Luck. How ominous.

I went to my follow up appointment and was told to see a surgeon for a biopsy to see if the tumor was benign or not. The surgeon did the biopsy, sent the results off and I waited. She had said it looked to her to be benign. So, I hoped she was correct but I was scared she was wrong. I came back 2 weeks later and while I was waiting in the room with my little paper smock that didn’t really cover anything, I noticed my file on the table. So, of course I took a peak. It was cancer. When the doctor came in with her sad face, I already knew and I said, It’s cancer. She confirmed it and then I launched into a speech on how cancer is so treatable now and there were all kinds of new things to try. I was babbling. I would not cry. I would not cry. I asked if my husband could come in.

I felt numb. When I saw him, I cried. I sobbed. I felt like I was in a surreal universe. This was not my life. We went to the surgeons office to discuss options. I had one option presented to me. Radical mastectomy followed by Chemotherapy, 8 sessions and then followed by radiation therapy, 6 weeks. I said how long do I have before I have to decide. She, the surgeon, said

2 weeks.

 

Hello. I am the author of the Historical Fiction novel called Mamie Garrison. It is a tale of slavery, abolition, romance and history, set in the years just prior to the Civil War. It is available on Kindle for .99 and on Kindle Unlimited; also in paperback. Mamie Garrison has a dual storyline. The present day story involves Bella and Andrew finding Mamie's journals. Their story includes romance and paranormal aspects. Mamie's story follows her adventures as an abolitionist through her journals. There are some mysteries as well as an unusual background in Mamie's life. I am 59 and married with one adult child and one grandchild. I have always enjoyed the written word and have been a voracious reader from my early youth. I am inspired by many authors in the historical fiction genre. I am also a lover of Russian literature, particularly Tolstoy and Doestoyefsky. I find great inspiration for creating characters by looking at the ones these two authors have created. There is such a depth to them. I have written for most of my life in one form or another. I have dabbled in poetry and songwriting, and have more started novels than finished ones. In my free time, I like reading, history and travel. I am interested in genealogy and working on my family tree. I live in the Midwest United States with my husband, Chris and my dog, Max.

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