I just like that picture. According to Pinterest, it is Aboriginal Art. No artist was listed.

So, I’ve written about my genealogy way back when I began this blog. I covered DNA, how memories are within us and passed down to us from ancestors. I mentioned many of the stories, as best I could, of those ancestors.

Then I covered my writing, my trouble with writing, my frustrations and issues with writer’s block. I struggle with whether to write any more about writing. I have a finished first draft. Working on the 2nd draft. Usual problems. I’m tired of being uninspired.

I’ve mentioned in passing my problems with chronic pain and fatigue. Today, this is what is on my mind.

I am tired and in pain. I hate to even say that. I’m not sure why. Possibly, because, I used to be a strong, independent woman who took care of everything myself. I wasn’t afraid of anything.

Now, I’m afraid of lots of things but nothing enough to be a phobia. Well, except maybe falling. I’ve broken 3 different bones just by falling. Simple falls, like tripping over a lip in the sidewalk. My bones are brittle now.

I think that there are times when I like to pretend there is nothing wrong with me. Then, I have to accept my limitations and it is so hard for me. I hate feeling limited. I hate accepting that I just cannot do certain things anymore.

For example, why shouldn’t I write everyday? I should be able to do this regardless of how tired I am or how much pain I’m feeling? Right? It’s what all the best authors say is the key to becoming a good writer. Some days, I can’t even lift a pen. Still, I tell myself must and then am disappointed in myself when I don’t.

I fight myself. Am I winning? Am I losing? I don’t know.

Hello. I am the author of the Historical Fiction novel called Mamie Garrison. It is a tale of slavery, abolition, romance and history, set in the years just prior to the Civil War. It is available on Kindle for .99 and also in paperback. Mamie Garrison has a dual storyline. The present day story involves Bella and Andrew finding Mamie's journals. Their story includes romance and paranormal aspects. Mamie's story follows her adventures as an abolitionist through her journals. There are some mysteries as well as an unusual background in Mamie's life. I have completed book two in my series. Colin Garrison, Book 2 of The Garrisons is available at Please see my Colin Garrison page under the menu option for a small sample of this new book. The third and final book in the series, Emily Garrison is now available. Please see above for link. I am 62 with one adult child and one grandchild. I have always enjoyed the written word and have been a voracious reader from my early youth. I am inspired by many authors in the historical fiction genre. I am also a lover of Russian literature, particularly Tolstoy and Dostoevsky. I find great inspiration for creating characters by looking at the ones these two authors have created. There is such a depth to them. I have written for most of my life in one form or another. I have dabbled in poetry and songwriting, and have more started novels than finished ones. In my free time, I like reading, history and travel. I am interested in genealogy and working on my family tree. I live in St Louis.

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