I think this is true for anyone who has undergone a trauma of some sort. Maybe for others as well.

I know that I see my life as before Cancer and after Cancer. Before I could move past the physical and emotional trauma of cancer, I had to mourn my past life. The woman I was and the one I would no longer be.

This insight came to me not right away but a few years after the surgeries and treatments were done. In a moment of insight, a flash really, I knew that I would never move forward unless I let go of my “before cancer” life.

And I did. I let go. Not in one moment but almost as quick. I am not one to wallow in self-pity. I looked back on what was good in my past and I found ways to hang on to those memories. I kept pictures and other little items that reminded me I was not just a person who’d had cancer. Cancer is only part of who I am.

I look back fondly on the girl/woman I was. She was a fireball. She makes me smile.

But so does the woman I am now. 😊

Hello. I am the author of the Historical Fiction novel called Mamie Garrison. It is a tale of slavery, abolition, romance and history, set in the years just prior to the Civil War. It is available on Kindle for .99 and also in paperback. Mamie Garrison has a dual storyline. The present day story involves Bella and Andrew finding Mamie's journals. Their story includes romance and paranormal aspects. Mamie's story follows her adventures as an abolitionist through her journals. There are some mysteries as well as an unusual background in Mamie's life. I have completed book two in my series. Colin Garrison, Book 2 of The Garrisons is available at Please see my Colin Garrison page under the menu option for a small sample of this new book. The third and final book in the series, Emily Garrison is now available. Please see above for link. I am 62 with one adult child and one grandchild. I have always enjoyed the written word and have been a voracious reader from my early youth. I am inspired by many authors in the historical fiction genre. I am also a lover of Russian literature, particularly Tolstoy and Dostoevsky. I find great inspiration for creating characters by looking at the ones these two authors have created. There is such a depth to them. I have written for most of my life in one form or another. I have dabbled in poetry and songwriting, and have more started novels than finished ones. In my free time, I like reading, history and travel. I am interested in genealogy and working on my family tree. I live in St Louis.

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